From the moment you were born, you were told who you had to be. You were told what to eat, what to wear, and what school to go to. You were told what job you should take, by what age you should be married, how many kids you should have, and what someone like you is "supposed" to do. Nobody thought to ask what you actually wanted for your life.
So you tried a few things to break free from the box you were put in but they didn't work. You had a money dream, a health target, a relationship goal, and you didn't reach them... so you had to get more practical, more "realistic" and fall back into the plan that they created for you. It's ok. It's not your fault.
You didn't learn how to do this in school. The people around you couldn't teach you either because they're barely hanging on themselves. You didn't have the money, resources, equipment, time, connections, background, or education to make it work. You did the best you could with what you had. It's ok, it's not your fault. But where you are right does not have to be where you end up.